Heart in my Hands

I can't write honestly. I can't write about things I'm afraid others could read. It's not about them, mostly. It's about me. Things I don't want anybody to know because I would feel like I just lost my last bit of dignity. I would feel caught in the most uncomfortable way, naked.

I also completely lost the ability to write about me or anything else, as soon as I prepare to write, as soon as my fingers touch the keys I totally stupefy. There is nothing in my head.

Having all this said I will set this diary on hiatus. It has already been on hiatus, I know, but making this official at least disburdens me from writing.

Mariam

16:59 + 29.12.06

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